I didn't mention it to anyone, not even my sister, Maurice and I continued seeing each other secretly, Allan images came through my head and thoughts but I'd always brush it off "he doesn't deserve me" I'd tell myself, but who deserved me? I knew my affair with Maurice has no foundation, I was lost in lust for him and he took his time and gave me dose after dose of his sweetness.
Midway into our amourous affair, Maurice changed job and moved to another city, he asked me to join him and promised to get me a job.
I told my parents that I got a bigger offer in another city and want to move out,my parents weren't comfortable with the plan but I did my best to convince them, my sister whom I kept in the dark about everything I did with Maurice joined me to talk to my parents, I promised my mum that I would be visiting regularly, on the night before my departure, my mum prayed for me and told me to always pray and promised to always pray for me. I packed my belongings and met Maurice at the airport ,we boarded a flight to Marrakesh ,that was how I started cohabiting with Maurice.
The first few months were great, we had some good days and some bad days you would expect?, trying to get acquitted to his new job and the new city Maurice didn't spend much time at home, after four months and yet to get a job, I lived off him, he was into me greatly and I was into him, he tried to provide for me as well as keep the house and still fend for his people back home.
I stuck by him ready to give him all the support, we sometimes brought up talks about those we left behind in the city where we came from, Allan and my parents, Maurice assured me he'd never make me cry, he gave me money to send to my parents from time to time, I called my parents regularly and my sister and Gladys my friend,I made them believe that everything was okay with me and that I was fine.
One year into our living together and no job coming, I told Maurice to let me start up a business, it was boring sitting at home all day, he spent late nights at his office while I cuddled up with my pillow without a word of complaint, when he returned I would be available to offer him anything he'd need to make him sleep peacefully,I hardly think about myself.
Maurice asked me if he's not taking good care of me? he was but its important that I get busy, I told him, but when I noticed it was bringing issues between us I had to let it go.
I stayed at home, I cooked, I cleaned, I washed and I waited, Maurice worked and traveled and returned to the bedroom anytime and I was at his beck and call, I did all these without asking any question,I was willing to serve him, I signed up for all these but I didn't sign up for the heartbreak and humiliation I got.
As the day went by Maurice became a stranger to me, his late nights created distance between us, we lost communication,it became difficult to get him to talk, I tried severally to make him understand that we're drifting apart but he waved It off, and claimed it was his new business "once I'm settled in, I will be available all day"
But it wasn't to be, the distance grew and the the secrets,Maurice stopped sharing his activities with me my ice cold heart tightened, I waited for Allan his promises of "marrying" me legally before going to meet my parents officially,
I was wrapped under the bed sheets, he returned late as usual and bent over to kiss my cheek as usual, which had become disgusting lately, I closed my eyes and kissed him back, then I turned around as he walked away, to the shower, my eyes fell on a Little sheet of paper that fell off his breast pocket, I picked it up and looked at it casually, then looked at it curiously.
I was not ready for what I saw butI knew better than to make noise about it,
I gathered myself together and followed her up, she had his heart while I was in his house, taking care of his food and scrubbing his apartment, she knew nothing about me neither did Maurice knew I read the note where she listed all she'd be needing for her maternity, she ticked the items she bought already,she was expecting a baby with Maurice in a couple of months and they were happy.
I made arrangements with a kind lady I met at a mall nearby, she agreed to accommodate me till I get hold of myself and join her in her business or go back to my former city, I saved some money from the allowance Maurice provided for me. He hardly return home early so I hard enough time to move out my essentials, I left a note for him on the bed, I thanked him for his candid decision to destroy me and bird my self for being so stupid for living in denial of a clear truth.
The weight came heavily on me, I cuddled up under the covers nursing my wound, thinking on how to go about explaining to my family of the mess I made of my life and how to begin living again.
Maurice kept bursting my phone with his senseless calls, I didn't care. how fierce the fire that will burn him was, his empty words were so heavy
