Good morning,
It was not a tough decision for me to make because I'm guided by grace, as a human I may not be able to do this.
I weighed the options, how is he going to feel? how will it sound to him? the mental strength in every woman comes to fore when she is faced with a situation like this, -standing for what is right and pleasing the guy that she cherishes.
You remember the day I asked If I can visit Belgium?you replied "What would I tell my woman? " it's simple to comprehend for me.
There's a woman in your life ,she has been there with you all along. coming in simply means I'd intruding.
Believe me at this stage in my life I know I am too valuable to be an after thought. I can't play that role.
It hurts me to think all I could be for you is a bedmate, I'd be the woman to travel with you and meet you so we can have sex, eat, drink, have sex and sleep, wake up and have sex again and then I'd travel back while You travel back to your woman '
I jokingly asked you the plans you have for our "friendship" which has seen us spending years together and doing businesses, I sincerely would have wanted something more than being "just good friends", I secretly wanted you and I hoped something better could come out, I didn't know about this " woman " whom you told me her story two weeks ago,that was after three years of my friendship with you.
You said "I love your friendship, I appreciate your company, your intelligent contribution to the team ,I would love to have you in my life as long as you'd permit me ",and this was days after you told me you'd love me to move into your house at Walnut, which was where you live and work,your family lives in Belgium,you visit them from time to time.
It's against my principles,I know what it took me to get to where I'm now and I am not ready to compromise.
It may sound strange but you'd have observed that I've always being careful whenever it's intimacy talks.
I'm not proving upright and prude not at all.
I am only saying that I am too good to go sleeping with a man with a woman in his life. It is not my style ,no matter whatever benefit that relationship promises.
It doesn't mean I don't value having you in my life but when it's becoming obvious that your needing me around you is for fun, I'd not be part of it.
my self will be disappointed in her if ever I belittle me by getting involved in such activities.
You made it clear that your residence in Belgium is a no go area for me because that's where the woman who has been with you since you were 20 years old lives,I can move into your house in walnut, have access to your cars and everything I want,you promised to pay me every month and make me a Life member of your team.
It sounds so good and sweet ,I would gladly accept this offers if you are single and working towards something tangible for you and I.
But it's all for amorous living, playing your side roles ,I'm sorry but I am not taking any part of it.I'm ready also to drop my role for the team if it comes to that.
Thank you for the opportunity you gave me to try new things.
