I Have Been Caught Cheating (Pt2)I Cheated Because I Had No Respect For His Feelings..

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One day you will meet someone who's more fascinating than your partner, get ready to fight your own self and be content with what you have.

We have to talk about RESPECT also if we want to prove the cliche wrong, it is a general consensus that people can still love and respect a partner they are cheating on, to me and in the true view point ,it is impossible to cheat on someone you truly love and respect.

We have not loved God enough to not desire sin, there's a limit people gets to in their relationship with God that it becomes difficult for them to sin heavily against God, I'm bringing this scenario in because people will easily say that "even God said that we all have sinned and come short of the glory of God" ,but we forget that committing sin is not checked with sexual immorality, there are ten commandments and array of things that God commanded us to avoid,

In all the things we pledged to give to our partners, If we agreed that sexual loyalty is one impossible task then I will say that we are liars ,and there's no truth in us. .

Sex is not the only thing we can claim to be fallible in, if we can cheat on the person we claim to love and respect, then we can lie to them, we can steal from them, we can kill them, we can betray them, we can bear false witness against them, but we say it's possible to not do all these to them, how then do we want to make it acceptable that having sex with someone who. Isn't our partner is something we can't avoid?

I decided to cheat on Jordan after I lost all the love and respect I had for him, before then he was my prince in shining armour, my prPrince Charming,the only man I see in the whole wide world , remember it was a decision I took, I was tired of the relationship, nothing was working. Instead of letting me go, Jordan decided to frustrate me.

We started on a terrific note, our emotions swept us away, we didn't have time to observe each other's attitude to know if we can make an item, we depended on the emotional rush we felt and idealized the lovely feelings we shared.

When his attitude became unbearable, the lid was blown open and I was able to see beyond the tingling sensation his name and company made me feel, I found nothing to hold on to, it was at last an empty pathetic feeling ,

On One of the afternoons after Jordan had beat me to pulp,my eyes closed up in pains, I ran to Mike for succputhad left the house after having his fill from pummeling me and watching me gnash in pains, that was his lifestyle , barely seven months after I moved into his house in Georgia.

Oh I didn't tell you who Jordan was? He was my ex-fiance, more like a husband because I was bethroted to him, his very influential father saw me at my uncle's company, he was a consultant and my uncle's associate ,he liked me and told my uncle that he would want his son to marry me, he brought him to my family house to meet me, I will confess that I was charmed by his exposure, his looks and very enticing background, I was naive ,at that time I had little knowledge on what actually a relationship needed to work, spending times with a charming sophisticated guy was. It for me, so when my family asked me if I was interested in the proposal, I accepted.

Our families engaged us and we started living life like couples ,it was blissful at the beginning, Jordan gave me everything I needed and more ,we made a happy pair ,I was in the final stage in my studies, so I traveled to the states to see Jordan, he also visited my base from time to time, at this stage I argued with my friends that there's no reason(s) that could make someone who is in a relationship to cheat, for me cheating was a life for liars and hopeless people.

I was in love with a powerful personality and that's the happiest feeling ever.
It came in frickles,then it began to flood in, Life with Jordan became a nightmare, I wouldnt say he changed,he was a terrible lover just that I didn't see it, I was clouded by the outter part of him,Jordan was an animal in human skin.

He battered me without cause, he screamed at the slightest mistake I made, he didn't allow me make friends and stopped me from communicating with my old friends ,he gave me rules that I would live by and beat me up at the slightest breach of any of them, worst off he instructed me to never mention anything we did to any of our families "we are couples so everything begins and ends here" he'd tell me each time he felt I was broken and may want to reach out to my family.

I cried every second and wondered how I got myself into such a corner? All the bliss I experienced in the earlier stage of my relationship with Jordan vanished,I became a shadow of myself. till today I still wonder why It took me too long to realize I was in a prison?

The first thing Jordan did after our engagement was to take me to the registry and married me legally, without my parent's consent, I didn't complain though because we were happy at that time.

Sex was a nightmare ,Jordan would just walk in from nowhere and asked if I had pants on? if I said 'yes' he orders me to pull it off, when he started this abuse it was heartbreaking for me, if I'd be quiet and waited to see maybe he'd realize he's talking to a woman and not a piece of furniture, he'd get to where I'd be seated and push me down, pin me on the bed with one hand and pull off my pants with the other hand and then ram into me, there's no emotion, there's no feelings ,the pains will pierce through my waist up to my back, and run all over my body, I'd lie quietly and endure his animalistic displays until he's done, then he'd get off and walk out, I will curl up on one side of the bed and cry my heart and eyes out.

I was bruised and battered, I'd tend my sored private parts for days, most times. It won't heal before Jordan will come again, I hated him, every day I felt like stabbing him in his sleep, but my belief stood on my way.

I didn't know Mike was aware of my ordeals, he was our neighbor,one evening on the road coming back from the park Mike stopped me, Jordan traveled out of the city so I decided to stroll down to the park, he was a Kenyan and worked at the local clinic downtown. we had been on talking terms but our conversations had been short and formal before that day, Mike looked straight into my eyes and told me that I was the most beautiful woman he'd ever seen in his whole life, there was a way he said it that got me smiling,Mike told me he's being real, then asked me why I chose to die at Jordan's house? I was startled, so he knew all these while? So he heard my shouts and screams? Oh my !!,how many of the other people living in our neighborhood heard my cry?slowly I felt tears gather in my eyes and dropped down my face,

Mike closed in the gap between us and held me tenderly ,his hold was soft and felt safe, he took out his towel and cleaned my face, he walked to a rock nearby and helped me seat down, then he sat close-by me, he held me to his body and allowed me cry.

I felt better afterwards and told Mike everything I was going through in Jordan's house,Mike comforted me and promised to be a friend to me,he told me that he'd definitely find a way to help me out.

I found solace in Mike's company, he checked on me anytime there's space and whenever Jordan was around, he stayed away, he called me endlessly on the telephone and sent me soothing text messages,gradually I found myself smiling again. I sneaked out to see Mike and we spent times talking about our lives and our family, I didn't feel the distance between Jordan and I anymore, his scolding and nagging stopped having effects on me,I'd only laugh at him and go back to where Mike and I stopped.

Then Mike kissed me,it felt different,his touches felt cool and his arms felt safe,spontaneously our bodies entwined, it felt soothing feeling Mike make love to me,it was nothing compared to the nightmare Jordan put me through. life began to make meaning to me once again and I found myself looking forward to a new day.

Maybe Jordan was surprised at the new life I was living,I became my usual self and my skin radiated ,I didn't know how he did it but Jordan rushed in on Mike and I one night and caused a stir,we found a means and escaped, that was how my relationship with Jordan ended.

Jordan threatened fire and brimstone but I didn't care a thing,his family tried everything to settle the issue but I refused, my family didn't like the fact that I concealed all I went through from them,my brother took Jordan to court and he was charged for assault & battering, it was tough and rough at the same time.

I have had a relationship after this incident and believe me I didn't see any reason to want to cheat,no it felt dirty for me,I had respect for the man in my life, I loved him and we had great understanding, I told him everything that went on in my life and he comforted me and promised to not cause me pains,we had misunderstood ourselves in some occasions but it didn't cause strains in our relationship,nothing threatened us to want to break up,I experienced love differently, even as I write this I still didn't see anything that can make me cheat on the man I respect, I care about how he will feel,even in his abscence I will not do anything I know that he wouldn't like, I protect his feelings and wish every day to make him happy and give my best to what we had.

I met fascinating people along the line,I held on to him,I'd look back each time and all I saw was a caring soul that was committed to seeing me happy and fulfilled. I felt content.

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