I met a guy at a conference my organisation held with their affiliate companies,we got talking , from that first day we shared a seat during accreditation, there was something about him that was irresistably attractive, he had this charisma ,his baritone voice was deep and pierced through my skin pores, his smile was disarming, I knew I wanted to get close to him for what I can't possibly have a hold on,
I found myself flirting with him, I would say he had an upper hand in the flirting, he touched me on any part of my body and smiled rather than apologise whenever I look quizzically at him,
Within 2 days we had told each other,basically everything there is to tell about us, our family, our job and our personal lives,his name was Precious, he worked with one of the companies .a chartered accountant.
it was a week long seminar, we spent practically every of the minutes together, after a while we felt like there was huge sexual tension between us,
Eventually we made out, had series of sex, deep in me I knew it's not going anywhere, the last two days saw me faking orgasm. It was clear there was no deep soul connection, it was merely lust, he had great body and amazing personality
the feeling had started wearing off
The conference came to an end, I was excited to finally say goodbye to him, he wore gloomy look all through ,obviously not wanting us to separate but I gave no damn, for. me it was about the moment. we exchanged contacts, I didn't bother calling him.
He called a couple of times but I wasn't interested in keeping it intimate.
It seemed like we will end up losing even thr friendship if we didn't take caution.
We took some time off, we didn't talk for weeks, even months.
Then we met again after six months.he hardly got over me but I moved on even before the conference was over.
We agreed to keep it cordial instead of parting ways completely, he wanted me but I' was not ready for any commitment .
I have met guys I really like but had to move on because it wasn't to be,
I got to know that there are people you like that you can't date,there are people you love that you wont't marry
There are people you truly developed strong feelings for but it's not right
One should have the ability to choose,there are people who should be your friend, no matter how much you yearn to be so close to them, it will never get to intimacy level, because there are different stages of feelings, there are fondness, there are lust,there are love,there are also feelings we develop out of loneliness.
Other feelings are created by closeness, having close contact with the opposite sex sparks some hormones in our body and the feelings always yearn to be satisfied, when it is not, it lingers especially when we keep fuelling it by creating thoughts on them and building fantasies
The best thing to do is ,talk to ourselves, telling us. It's us giving away our power sheepishly, then withdrawing from whoever is igniting these feelings and then soaking ourselves into activities that makes us happy
